I was brought up in a cult. We were isolated and had very little contact with the outside world. Watching television, listening to the radio or music was not allowed within the commune. Even though we were hidden away from society, we moved around to many places.
Eventually, we left the cult when I was seven years old and that was the first time I went to school. I didn’t understand a lot of what was taught, and I became very distant from everyone because I didn't know how to act around other children.
Growing up was also quite hard for me because my mum spent a lot of time taking care of my younger brothers and trying to adapt to life in the real world. My mum was often busy, so I had to fend for myself a lot of the time.
At the age of sixteen, I fell in love and started a relationship with a man. I fell pregnant and we decided to get married in Scotland. I had a beautiful baby boy and then things got really bad between my husband and me.
I was abused both mentally and physically and when I tried to walk away he changed his behavior and things got better, but only for a short while. I fell pregnant with my second son and the abuse started again. Sadly, his drinking got worse and he filed a complaint to social services that I was a bad mother to my two sons.
I couldn’t take the abuse anymore, so I made the decision to leave my husband. Unfortunately, I had to leave without my two boys because of the complaint that he filed against me. That was a very hard time in my life, losing both my husband and my children. I also had to go into hiding for a while as I feared for my life.
After a while, I settled and started to meet new people and began to make new friends. That didn’t last long as I quickly realized that the friendship was not for me. During this very dark time in my life, I responded to a photoshoot session and I really enjoyed every second of it. I was so happy and excited that I forgot the pain and hurt in my life at those special moments during the shoot. I made the decision to continue on this journey and I started applying for more photoshoots. I also met a special person who understands me and what I had been through. Unfortunately, we cannot be together at the moment, but we are working hard and trusting that we will be together soon.
I have a new passion which, involves needlework pictures. I have worked hard at perfecting my skill and now I have started to sell my pictures online. This keeps me busy, but I am very excited about my found love of modeling and photoshoots. I feel beautiful and I am still very strong.